Moved out for a few days
Will start from the beginning, I got married to the girl of my dreams 3 years ago, we have a young daughter, when I say the girl of my dreams I mean it, when I was 21 I used to tell my buddies I would marry her, she's the only w I've ever known that made me to nervous to speak, we bumped into each other after years of me telling mates i would marry her, hit it of became bf/gf i proposed within 18 months, and we were 2ppl genuinely happy. She fell pregnant on the 19th month and I took it terribly, it wasn't what we had planned at that point in our lives, I became an ass and started switching of without realsing.
We got married before the baby came, and I was happy to be marrying her and sad that it wasn't going to be the two of us. Our daughter was born and the familial bond didn't happen for me instantly , tbh I don't remember the first 6 months of my daughters life, I just threw myself into my work cause I thought I need to step up and provide, I neglected them both, during this time I met a girl on a weekend away with friends, nothing happened and I kept in touch and went back to meet her a month later, nothing sexual happened I couldn't do it, i apologised and gave her a kiss and a cuddle and made excuses and said goodbye and lay in a hotel bed in a weird city wondering wtf I was doing, I resolved to never do anything like this again and go back home and to never tell my wife
My wife found out, it's been over two years now, we argued she cried she moved to her mums, came back we went on, she moved out again this time for longer, I persuaded her to come back, that was a year ago. Something clicked in me as if my eyes were reopening to what I was about to lose, my wife, daughter, happiness, I changed my life and felt the joy of being a father and husband. 6 months ago my wife changed and stared saying she's not sure if we have a future, recently she told me she hasn't forgiven me for the cheating and she doesn't believe anything sexual didn't happen. I've tried to show her through my words and actions how deeply deeply sorry I am, I truly regret with every fibre of my being what I had done. We stared marriage therapy 5 weeks ago and in every session she has said she is ready to forgive, in the last few months we have made plans for our future, home, holidays, social life, etc, last sat she told me we will try for a baby at the end of the year, things have genuinely been getting better, a few days later she told me she can't forgive me, she doesn't know if she wants to, she wants to be alone and she want time apart, I moved out to a hotel today to try and respect her wishes. She says she will let me know if she wants to separate or carry on with therapy.
I don't know wether to give her space, to fight for her, how to show her how truly sorry I am or to just give up, any advice would be appreciated