Geosai, you better get yourself improved to be more self-sufficient in the area of emotional dependence and other areas. Your wife is serious about leaving you and shows no sign of coming back to you. You are probably right that she is not ready for marriage and I would add not ready to face adulthood and reality. Everyone will face stress and the death of a family member at some point in their life but life and reality does not stop because you are having a difficult period.
I would not doubt that her being with you since she was a young teenager probably is also a factor. She probably thinks that she is missing something in life by just being with you for her whole adult life. As a teenager it is very easy to think that life is mostly excitement and fun but when reality sets in in the late 20s or 30s it is a jolt.
Geosai, you are very young and do not have any children with your wife so you have no excuse to not start building a life without her. At this time your wife is very determined to get away from you and has shown no indication that she is coming back to you. If she comes back you should have a very detailed plan as to what you both are going to do and how you and her are going to improve in the things that affects your relationship negatively. Your focus right now is to concentrate on how you can get stronger and better with your negative points and stop putting a lot of energy and thoughts into how you can get your wife back; she does not want to come back. If you do not get more self-efficient you will become a door mat and be dependent on your wife for your emotional well-being.
Just like your wife is going to have to face reality so are you!
As of now, she showed no sign of coming back, true. She was speaking to one of our friends, and told her that currently she is studying for another exam (that I also knew about), but she told her that her mind is not there to study etc because of our situation. It's all her fault, not mine that she left, I never told her to leave or anything and always helped her whenever possible. When she had an accident with her car I used to drive her to lessons twice a week so she can continue to study etc. Her parents never drove her to anywhere. But obviously you do 99% right, that 1% is what they complain about.
At least yes, don't have any children with her. This weekend I must say that I was veeery down, since I spoke to her friend and when I went home found out that she took some other stuff, felt like someone hit me with a sledgehammer. Like there is no other hope or anything. Tried to go to the gym but left after 40 minutes.
Once I also told her that we can try to meet up, maybe once a week, and start like to date again, instead of come back home and start to live together again. We can start to built trust in each other again, and if it works good, if not f*ck it, but doesn't look like she wanted it. I also invited her for a coffee once, but she had a family meet, after that I never invited her for anything. Maybe will see in a couple of months more, maybe she starts to realize what she did. I will continue to work on myself and hang out as much as possible and meet other friends.
As of now all looks good though
, and might say that I was proud of myself. no other women etc for sure, not ready for that type of life at the moment. But felt really good, I also uploaded some pics, and for sure she saw them, maybe she starts to feel a bit jealous hehe.