Originally Posted by nitewolf
She hasn't said she is going to do anything but wants the freedom to do so. if the time comes that she actually does commit the act then I need to make a decision. I can't live without her right now and i can't live with her... I'm just a jumble of emotions and a real mess at this point.
wow.This is a tough one because it sounds like she is not budging from her decision.
If you have had conversations on how to improve your relationship and she is still harping on about wanting her freedom, then you will have to let this go.Its gonna be a tough ride for you as this is not what you wanted but you cannot control it.
She may change her mind after she has had future affairs ( and there will be affairs looming). But in the meantime I would try and move forward without her. Its very, very difficult to do this but you are not plan B. DONT give her that option!! You are not a doormat! You deserve to be loved and respected.
You say you cannot live without her but believe me, your feelings towards her will change the more she hurts you. You will start to fall out of love gradually.
My partner and I are currently in R and the relationship is blossoming but my feelings for him will never be the same. I loved him 100%..could not live without him..he was the only one who made me happy f..felt so lucky etc etc. That was before he cheated on me.
8 months later and yes I do love him but I have changed. He no longer has that power over me. I actually see him more realistically and I see a man with lots of issues. He is suddenly not as appealing as he use to be. I sometimes think he is weak and pathetic for cheating on me. Off putting traits
There is still hope in your situation, even if you cant see it at the moment