Re: I feel my husband chooses weed over me
I have been a pothead for five years. I am painfully aware of how much money I wasted, how much time weed took from my engagement and new marriage and how selfish I was. I put myself in potentially dangerous situations by hanging out with drug dealers.
I have used weed to hide from my painful past and literally burn away my trauma. I have also used it as a way to subconsciously rebel against true partnership; I was so scared of losing my identity to my husband. It was the last remnant of my crazy single days.
In the space of a year, 3 of my dealers have been arrested. I've grown weary of being around lowlifes and throwing away money. Most of all, I regret choosing pot over my husband. It is a CHOICE, not an involuntary, uncontrollable action. The downside is that your hubs can only quit when he is ready. It has taken me three years, but I don't even like smoking anymore. I'm ready to grow up and face my trauma, instead of hiding in addiction.
I have even gotten rid of all my weed stuff; no more astrays, papers or grinders. I'm done and your husband will have to smoke his last joint when he CHOOSES to.
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Last edited by Mrs.G; 02-03-2011 at 12:22 AM.