Re: I want my wife and son back...eventually
Addictions are about self denial. You must decide which you will deny yourself, alcohol or your wife and son. You must give up one or the other. Think of all the things that you can do in a loving family. Now think of all the things you can do while intoxicated. You must choose one and I don't mean simply to say it, I mean to choose it and be prepared to give the other up. It can be done.
My father turned to alcohol and I saw first hand its vile effects on our family. In time so did my father and he came to us one day and said I will never touch another drop and to my knowledge he did not, until his death. No AA, no therapy or counselors, just a man with grit and determination who would not allow alcohol to destroy him. It CAN be done. I am not suggesting that you abandon your treatment but understand this, when all is said and done it is you that has to turn your back on alcohol and it is you that will reap the rewards of sobriety, the greatest reward being the possibility of having that loving family.
There is a quote that says simply; if a person wants to do something badly enough they will find a way, if not, they will find an excuse. What do you want more? Your wife, your son and your family or alcohol. Only you can decide. I hope you find the strength and I wish you good fortune.