I have been married for 11 years and have a 6 year old son with my husband.
My husband has a problem with prescription medication.
He has stolen many pills of various prescriptions I have had in the past several years.
The problem is he will take what should be a months worth of meds in a week or so then he steals my medication.
He falls asleep watching TV, in the middle of dinner in mid sentence and at times staggers around and talks complete nonsense in front of our son.
I found out recently that I have a herniated disk in my back and have been in excruciating pain only to find that half of my pain medicine has vanished.
He is more concerned about getting high than his wife being in horrible pain and try going to your doctor and telling them that you have run out of your narcotic pain medicine in 2 weeks when it should have lasted a month, they don't take that we'll and treat you as a drug seeker.
I don't even take it as often as I could so I actually would have more left than I should. I also have insomnia for which I am prescribed medication and I don't take that every night but somehow that has come up short also.
I have confronted him about this in the past and gotten him to admit it eventually and he gave me the excuse that he was ashamed to tell me.
I have confronted him recently when he has been obviously impaired in front of my son who has said "Daddy's acting weird " and he says he will stop but it continues.
My father was and still is an alcoholic and drug addict. I grew up seeing my father act the same way as my husband and do not want my son to go through that, it has had a huge impact on my life and I did stop speaking with my father a few years ago after he refused to let me get him in treatment and I found out he had stolen my brother's identity to go to Emergency rooms for narcotics and also take out several loans that he didn't pay back and ruining my brother's credit.
My husband is adamant that he did not steal my pain medication this time (60 of 120 pills)!
And I also found today that I have come up short on my sleep medicine. I have hidden any medication that I thought he might take for years now until he finds my hiding spot and I have to keep changing where I keep them.
I know that this is not good for my son to witness or for me to let him put us through.
I also found many emails about searching on Craigslist to meet up for anonymous sex and actual plans to meet up with people, male and female. He said that this was just a fantasy thing and he never actually followed through with it.
I am so tired of him looking me straight in my eyes and lying.
I do not think I really love him anymore but I fear being alone
and I am scared of divorcing him also because I would have to share custody of my son and can not bare the thought of being away from him for any length of time or sharing holidays and all the things that come with a divorce.
I also cannot keep him away from his father because my son of course adores him and I don't think that would be good for him either.
I have no family around, the closest is over 6 hours away. I can not afford to live on my own and he could not afford to pay me child support!
I don't know what to do, I know I need to do what's best for my son, not to mention myself.
I would like to get my husband professional help but when I bring it up he just gets defensive and angry and somehow turns it around like I have done something wrong. Any thoughts?
I broke up your post so it will be easier for people to read.
You have a few things going on here.
The most important one is that your health and life is in danger, since your drug addict husband is having sex with strangers from Craig's list. Don't believe for one minute that he isn't following through with the solicitations. He is a habitual liar, and cares more about drugs and sex than he cares about you.
You must stop having sex with him immediately and go get tested for STD's. HIV takes 6 months to 1 year to show up on a test, so even if you are infected, you won't know for that long. You will have to wait to be retested for HIV because of the long incubation period.
The next problem is the terrible example/situation for your son. You grew up with an addict for a father, and therefore you married one. Your son will either grow up to be an addict or marry one if he stays in this environment. Getting your son away from your addict husband will be less damaging than allowing him to see your husband high. If you divorce your husband, and if you can prove the drug addiction, you could very well get custody of him, and not have to share him very much.
You feel alone, but you aren't. Keep posting here. You will get encouragement, and ideas on what to do. Reach out to your family and friends for help. Like someone else already said, you can get a job, and provide for yourself. If your husband gets his act together, he will have to provide child support for your son.
Get that lock box that was suggested so you can keep your meds from your husband, and have them when you need them. Do it for yourself, not for him.