This probably sounds a bit immature and some might say "speak your mind".
I have known this guy for almost 15 years, we tried the dating, but he ended up moving to a different state and went back to his ex, and same as me. We always kept in contact - when he would come to visit his family he would reach out to me, when I was on vaca, I would visit him-us being single of course. We tried the distance dating thing, but he always cut if off because he either saw no potential or its was unfair to me as per his say back then.. So I eventually moved on got married, he ended up dating someone, I got divorce, a few months after his girl broke up with him, we reached out to each other.. still kept in touch and visiting each other when in town.
I always cared for him, and felt he was my soul- I was happy when he was around and missed him deeply when gone.
Fast forward now, I moved out of state and to the same state as him, not for him though but work reasons. I never told him my plans of moving until a week before. I came down, he helped me get a car, etc. During the week I was here, I was staying at my friends house for a few days before I got my apt situated. He comes and offers me to move in with him because he has a 3 bedroom house, and I can rent one out.. instead of me living alone in that apt and he would be mad if something was to happen to me in the area - such as me coming home late, and I am new to the state and so forth. Plus it would save on some bills. However, he stated he didn't want a relationship. So with all that I decided on staying at his place-why was beyond me..
It has been 5 months already, and we live like a couple, except the title of us being in a relationship. I deeply care for him, and when he gets home I am so happy to see him. He makes my heart happy but I am confused because, I am a beautiful, caring and we connect on so many levels. as to why he hasn't bought up the conversation of us having a relationship is beyond me. I want to tell him how I feel, but deep down it might change us and it will be awkward.
I don't know what is it he wants, he works ever day for, he has his own business. He comes home, we spend the evening together, or when he is home early we will go to a movie or so..we sleep int he same bed.. so i don't know what is holding him back.
Should I let things be, or should I say something - I want and see him as my future.