Here at TAM also because of my husband's drinking and our lousy marriage. He denies it...says he doesn't have a problem...he drinks because he likes the way it makes him feel. He says I'm the one with the problem. I, too, hold out for Hope, but it's not coming.
He'll be 56 this weekend. He has drank like this for as long as I have been married to him (21 yrs this past May). His poison of choice is Vodka (w/ very little water). He's an every day drinker...at least two (but he's a heavy hand, and his two are like 6 or more at a restaurant/bar). He can go .... maybe .... two days without and then he's back at nipping the bottle again, even if its some wine....he needs something in his system. He had a heart attack last year and he is now on heart meds that only exacerbate the "drunkeness". I have seen what the prolonged drinking has done to him, his health, his sex life, his mind, his attitude. It's not pretty, and it's not comical. I'm tired of taking care of his a$$ because of it. He thinks I am just blowing it out of proportion, but he's not on the receiving end of it.
, it's great that you have recognized that you have a problem and that you want to deal with it, and keeping a journal of your progress is a great way to track your every day thoughts, emotions, physical and mental appearance. Alcohol does affect sleep patterns, and it gets worse as you get older. Your liver has to work harder to process the toxins, and when you wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat that's your body working overtime to get rid of the poison. It affects your central nervous system, brain, cognitive thinking and motor skills. It affects your heart, liver, kidneys and pancreas. Google alcoholism and it's effects and you will find all you need to know.
Talk with your husband regularly about this. Talk to a counselor. Go to AA or Al-Anon. Find a support group. Go exercise. Keep up the excellent work!!!! Wishing you the best!!!!