Re: Does it ever get better?
Does he know this? Have you told it to him just this clearly and specifically?
Yes, he know how much he has hurt me and how this has caused me to lose respect and trust for him. He realizes now how much damage he has done to me and our marriage with his lack of communication for his wants and needs. I have once ever seen my husband cry once in the 20 years we have been together and this time he has shown me more honest remorse and anger at himself for what he has done.
Even with all the changes and the work we have done i am still unsure if our marriage will succeed. I am still having a hard time trusting again and it's not fair to me to go one constantly suspicious of what he is doing and it's not fair to him. It breaks my heart that this mistake of his might destroy a great marriage and family, but i have to be able to wake up every morning and look myself in the mirror and be able to look him in the eyes and truly trust and respect him. Trust is hard to repair once broken...