Need advice on husbands addiction
I will start by saying I have been married for 15yrs now, and have two girls. things changed so much the last few years...
I introduced my husband to some of my friends husbands and uncles, who later on I would find out were addicts themselves. My husband started hanging out with them and I would notice he would turn off his phone. I would question him about it and would always have an excuse. He would leave the house on a Friday night and not come back till next morning. Money started missing, and he started lying a lot. I was ready to leave him because I was not sure what was happening. One day I packed my suitcases and had my girls ready to leave w me, and then he confessed he was using cocaine. My heart broke into little pieces, he had been doing drugs for almost a year... I told him to get help he said he could stop on his own, obviously that wasn't true, but I will say he now has cut down from once a week to once a month. But it's been almost 2 years now... I do see him trying( he tries to stay busy so he won't have to think about drugs) but I'm just tired that when I need him the most he's gone. He disappears on major events, important days for our girls. Sometimes I don't even know what to tell my girls. Am I doing wrong staying with him? I hate staying up all night waiting for him, wondering if he's ok, I can't sleep when he's gone. Sometimes I feel like we are crossing a bridge and when we are about to cross over, the bridge collapses. I think he needs profesional help, my girls are getting older and noticing what's going on. My oldest who is 14, has questioned me about dads problem. She has asked if dad is using drugs. I told her dad is not doing well, he is sick and needs help... I know he's a good man, and I love him very much... I'm lost when it comes to this problem. I don't know if us staying together is helping him at all.
HELP!!! I don't want to live wondering if when I come home his missing, or if we have an event or game for one my girls, if he will make it or he will decide to be MIA again.
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