06-07-2012, 08:23 AM
Join Date: Jun 2012
| | Help! I want to save my marriage
I love my wife. She is the best thing that has happened to me and I don't see myself with another person for the rest of my life. She is just incredible. I was addicted to porn a couple of years ago and i thought i was past that phase of my life but last night i failed to control myself and once again I destroyed all the trust that she had in me. I think she wants to give up on me and i'm scared because i do not want to loose her. I lover her and the last thing i want her to think is that she is not good enough for me. I realized now that this addiction can reappear and i don't want it in my life again. I'm seeking help and counseling but my wife seems not to be very motivated to help me again. She is very frustrated and I understand her, i don't blame her. I am ashamed, frustrated and angry with myself for having failed her again. I want to do everything i can so this doesn't happen again and I certainly don't want to end my marriage, but I thing she is giving up on me. I have never seen her so frustrated with me and I'm scared to death of loosing her.