Re: Not an alcoholic but
I think I drink like you do. Many years back...over 20 years ago, I stopped cold turkey and went to A.A. I enjoyed going, I made some friends, and it kept me busy so I didn't have time to drink. I guess I got the "7 year itch" because I started to drink again. For 8 or so more years, I was able to have just one drink at a restraunt with my wife. All seemed fine.
Then I went through a real crazy stressful time. It built up over time. My dad passed away as well as two of my brothers and much much more.
I started to keep wine at home. Which for me was a problem. I can't stop at just one glass of wine. I proved I can go days, weeks months and even years without alcohol and I convince myself AND OTHERS that I am not an alcoholic.
So a while back I told my wife I thought I was an alcoholic. She laughed a little and told me I wasn't. To paraphrase what she said..
" how can you be an alcoholic?... You work hard, you never drink during the day, even if you drink a bottle of wine, it's over the course of the evening and you don't seem drunk. You wake up without an alarm clock. Your not angry or violent when you drink. You make more money now more than ever before. You work hard, you've earned it...I can go on..."
Being that my wife doesn't drink at all, I would think that she would be the first to tell me to stop. or say something like ...I like it better when you don't drink.
I still started to go to meetings again. for 6 months or so. My wife would rather me be home in the evenings instead of going to meetings, even if I drink a few glasses of wine. I think that I am such a high functiong alcoholic, I can easily hide it from others as well as myself. Most people I socialize with don't believe I am an alcoholic either...I don't get it.
YOU are the only one that knows if there is a problem involving alcohol...
Even though I know in my gut the I have a problem with alcohol, I still drink. I have so many events I go to with my work it's hard not to. A drink helps me be a little more social. When I am out and about, I stop at 2 drinks...ALWAYS...
At home, I buy just one bottle of wine at a time. For a while, I bought it by the case. It was cheaper that way.