09-01-2010, 12:11 PM
Join Date: Sep 2010
| | im a liar
so i have a very long story..
at the begging of last summer i met a guy at work. i had a boyfrined in mx who he and i were on our last straw. the coworker and i hit it off, but we never crossed a line.. until my bf and i broke up. so him and i saw e/o for a cpl weeks and decided to be coworkers. then a cpl months later we got hot and heavy and never left e/o's side. so from last sep to jan was the most amazing time for us. then his roomate came home from studying abroad. him and her had a thing previous to he and I.. but he continuously assured me it would be ok. then when she did she exiled me from the group of ppl i had become extremely close to.. he would come over to visit for the first six months.. we carried on a romantic relationship. then about two and a half months ago we stopped completely. i attempted to date a guy, unsuccesfully. and he and his roomate started dating.
.. so here's the issue. we have once again decided to make things work. the last week has been amazing. but everytime we hit a bump in the road he flips and ends it. there is no thick and thin with him... so i have told lies in the past to avoid his reaction. small lies, i have never cheated, but now he doubts me. and the lies are an initial reaction i have. three days ago he told me him and his roomy had sex. i was torn apart because i couldnt imagine him with her. so when he asked if i had anything to tell him i said no. i lied. it was only a) i couldnt bring myself to tell him, and b) i didnt want him to feel like i did.. the guy and i didnt have any sex btw, because i broke down crying and told him i couldnt go through with it cause i was in love with my ex.
so last night i told him the truth and he calls it lieing.. i know it is, but i just had to tell the real truth. i had to let him know the real circumstance. my problem is lieing. now he wants nothing to do with me.
how do i explain to him that its because i was scared..?
but he doesnt care. what do i do?