Back in August, we left the "family" church, I say family because it's mostly made up of family, his father is the pastor. We left it and joined another church. After 2 months we became members. I LOVED It there!!!! I was learning so much, and loved everything about it.
At my father in laws church it's 90% spanish. (Preaching and music, Pentecostal), for years I was miserable, I only went to please my husband. I don't understand 100% spanish, so the songs and preaching had no meaning to me.
The church we joined was all english. I was learning so much and could feel the presence of the Lord.
About 2-3 months ago, my inlaws started making my hubby feel guilty for leaving. So he would go to church there, and I would go to my church. Last week he started demanding that I "support" him and go to his church. We have argued many times since then.
I am emotionally and physically drained. I'm torn between the love I feel for the church and my husband. Part of me is ready to leave him and end my marriage. We have been married for 26 yrs. and it has been mostly good but I now feel resentment toward him and my inlaws. At his Dad's church my husband is a "co-pastor" and plays the guitar. At the other church, of course he didn't do these things, so his parents told him he wasn't following God's calling.
Counseling is out of the question...he's stubborn and says I'm not being the Godly wife and supporting him.
My heart aches at the thought of not going back to my church.
What do I do? God knows WHY I don't want to go back to his dad's church...lots of dysfunction. God knows my heart...
What do I do???