Re: Will Suicide Bar Me From Heaven?
I'm sorry to hear about your ailments. After loosing my mother, I can't help but think that life from here on after will not be very meaningful for me either.
Sorry about your loss of retirement. That is scary.
You sound depressed and with a good degree of reason. I am depressed as well. I want a big change, but most definitely not death...that would be a final and point of no return change.
I am free as a bird now and I want to live that way. I quit my job and didn't return to work at the end of this summer. I have 4 more years til early retirement, but I just don't want to wait anymore.
Do you own or do you rent?
I rented out my home and bought an RV. I am living in it full time. I park it in my back yard and pay my renter 1/4 of the electric and water bill to stay there. I also rented out my mother's house which I inherited after she died. I made a smaller house in the backyard of mom's house and rented that out too. All three homes got rented out in about 3 weeks that I put them up for rent!
I reported that as my rental income and I applied for Obamacare. I have insurance now and I don't pay an arm and a leg for it! I don't make much as rent in Texas is too darn cheap, but I owe nothing as I bought and paid for the small house and RV with my savings. I make less, but work nothing and am free to travel and take off wherever I very well please.
I feel happier now than I have in years! I can live with the moderate income I get and wait for the 4 years I need to get my early retirement.
Have you given the full time RVing life a look at? It's worth it, if you don't like living in the same darn place year after year.
I am getting ready to take flight as soon as I purchase the right type of vehicle to move my RV in. I also need to practice handling it on the road. I am no longer depressed and suicidal. I am optimistic about my future. I have to be careful what type of vehicle I purchase, as this will more than likely fully deplete my savings, but it is worth every penny to finally be barefoot and fancy free!
Just my two cents worth and some food for thought.
Good things come to those who wait...greater things come to those who get off their a$$ and do anything to make it happen.