I am new here.
We have been separated for almost 8 months. Previously, we were only talking and not seeing each other when I get the kids. During the last 3 months, we have been going out on weekends with the kids. I even hang out with them at her place (our house). We talk and sometimes we would be close to each other. She would let me massage her feet, back and her legs. Sometimes, I would even kiss her legs, her feet (just like what I use to do her) and hug her. She does not complain about it. When I leave, I sometimes give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
When she cooks, she would separate some so I can bring it with me. Lately, she would also want me to eat with her and the kids at her place.
She would also let me buy things for her when we go out at the mall.
Last fathers day, she told me that she would treat me with the kids and she even bought present. Last week was her birthday and I asked her what she wanted. She told me what she wanted her so I bought if for her. She even told me that she wanted to have dinner with kids and her mom on her birthday.
I have been very attentive to her and the kids. I made sure they are not having a hard time financially since I love them.
However, when I start talking about our relationship, she becomes uncomfortable. Here is what she wrote to me.
It's really difficult for me to explain to you how I feel. I am trying my best to give it a chance which is the reason why I hang out with you. But for some reason, I get so uncomfortable when you start talking about our relationship. I don't know why. And when you ask me to go out, I feel so much pressure. Right now, I am enjoying a stress-free, pressure-free environment. That's why I get so rattled when my environment changes. I don't know why I just get so tired when discussions about us occur. I feel like my body is shutting down. I hope you understand that maybe, I'm just not ready for these conversations.
I appreciate everything that you do for us. I won't blame you if you decide enough is enough. I just want to be open and honest with you.
I am somewhat confused with her messages.
Would you let your husband kiss you on the cheek, be very close to him and let him massage you while sitting and go out with kids and her mother if she does not have any feeling for you?