I am a 38-year-old man, but now I just want to cry...
My first post, and sorry for my poor English. I really wanna cry. I don't know what to do to solve my problems. I have been married for 7 years. My wife is a very good woman and she is almost 34. Before knowing my wife, I had a girlfriend and our relationship lasted 2 years. That girl was attractive and had a body shape which every man loved. And our sex was very great and I enjoyed that intimate relationship. However, our relationship didn't work out because of our personalities.
OK, then later I met my wife. She was a great woman. We got along very well. A few years later we got married. She is a devoted Christian. Before marriage, we didn't have sex. And her first time, of course, was after we got married. At first I found out that she wasn't "active" in the bed. It's just me kissing her and her body. She didn't get excited. She didn't have reaction. She was just lying down. The most she did was kissing my lips a little bit and hugging me. She had never watched porn, or sex magazines or anything. She never took initiative, not to mention oral sex. She didn't even have much juice. So I had a hard time trying to enter her body. OKOK...i did everything and she just laid down. In the first several years, it's like that. We had sex about 20 times in the first few years. Every time I used 10, 15 minutes trying to get into her body. It's alright as long as we finally had sex.
However, these few years, things have become worse. She is still the same. I seem not able to hold.. i mean I don't really get turned on. Even we are hugging naked, i cannot get hard. So we cannot have sex. I am not sure if it's my problem now. However, when I am watching porn, I can get hard and masturbate and eject normally. Should I take some medicine? Any solution?
I feel sad. I know my wife is a very good wife. She didn't have any sex abuse in childhood or anything. We both want a baby indeed. I do feel guilty to be honest. In my mind I sometimes compare her to my ex who was great in sex.