I'm obsessed with sex.
Line me up against the wall.... I'll admit it too .... I enjoy talking about sex, thinking about sex and having sex.... why sugar coat it . Thank God my husband enjoys it too -or I'd be an one angry ranting poster here!
Truth is....I even posted on a Sex Addiction forum before I landed here. I was going through SOMETHING over the top -what you men in puberty deal with.....it was taking over my mind... loved it ...but it was tormenting at the same time... and well.. this C R A Z Y experience opened my eyes to things I have been missing in my marraige for far far too many years.... I've cried buckets over it....wanting to go back in time...wish my husband was stiff 3 times a day...I envy all you women.
So here I am.... I speak about it. What we have learned through our experience.... HIS PAIN.... my ignorance ..... where WE missed it communicatively
... it was never deliberate or on purpose.... Does it have any value .....I don't know!
It seems most men on here are not like MY husband... so maybe not. He never pushed himself on me
, nor did he ever, even for a day....deprive me of emotional fullfillment ...like many women on here complain in their marraiges..I can not relate to that.... so all that leaves me is... I was the bad one, I was the neglectful one !! .... So now I am very very hotly passionate on the other side -because of my own mistakes & regrets in this life.
In it's own way...it has been a Therapy FOR ME to write here, I hope you all can put up with me ! To slowly let go our my many regrets of not being there sexually for my husband in the way he NEEDED, craved and missed... If I can spare some others this ignorant fate in their early marraiges -if they are married to these GOOD MEN.... to help them understand what I didn't...but so easily could have .... had I had some sexual mentors in my life inspiring me...how valuable!
I feel RDJ
was the Best mentor for men here ..and he took some slack for it.... he has moved on it seems. Some men chewed him out. He missed it fighting with his wife cause he wanted MORE SEX, he had that raging drive that younger men struggle with... (I get it !).... then growing older realizing he was missing the emotional -what his wife needed from him (Oh the big divide between the sexes!)
Even if a handful can be influenced by my words....then in MY EYES...it was worth the telling.
I am no longer Sex addicted (believe it or not)... ..I need forplay again!....but our marraige has taken new wings - climbed to greater heights I never imagined ....due to my revelatioins during that 8 month sex obsession frenzy... where I remained totally faithful ... but darn was I ever having some fantasies going on!
So you'll have to excuse some of us more passionate posters here. I'm guilty as sin ....and loving it anyway !!
Someday all of THIS may come crashing down, my husband worries menapause will do me in..becoming a passion of the past.....so he is going to take what he can get... but somehow I'm banking that won't touch what I have learned and felt so deeply in how it has enhanced ....US.
My bet is on ME.