Should I tell my wife that I'm gay/bi or should I wait?
This is a unique situation and I'm hoping to get some help. I have 2 boys by my wife. One is 4 and the other is 5 weeks. The last time we had sex was in January. Prior to that, we had sex once every 3 months. I have always been attracted to women and my wife is very attractive. Around 2 years ago, I could no longer get it up to have sex with her. I tried seeing doctors and taking erectile medication. It seems that nothing helped our situation. I could rarely get it up during sex and even the vardenafil rarely worked.
The paradox to this story is the fact that I have a very high sex drive. I can easily masturbate 2-3 times per day. It's just one day, I could no longer get aroused by her to have sex. We have not had sex since January and my excuse is that she was pregnant. She had a C-section and that was 5 weeks ago. Meanwhile, I'm thinking that I may like guys. I have never cheated on her and I have never had sex with a man. I just feel that a man would be able to satisfy me better. Another problem is that I'm still attracted to women too. I can watch women porn all day but yet, male porn disgusts me. I don't understand this but it's how I feel. I know this may sound confusing but I'm also confused too.
Is this normal? I'm 29 years old so I don't think I should be curious like this. I would prefer to stay with my wife and sleep with her but for some reason, that option just doesn't seem natural to me. Should I tell her that I think I am bi or gay or should I keep it to myself until I am sure? I know it's wrong to cheat but I have been thinking about maybe sleeping with a guy to see what it's like. She has been talking about the future lately and pretty soon, i'm sure she will start pressuring me for sex. I just don't know what to do so please help me.