Well, I am not sure what is going on with me but i have noticed some problems with myself. I am not sure if it is me getting older or if i have damaged myself but i am starting to worry and wonder if anyone has gone through this or knows what is wrong with me.
Well, i have been a very sexual person meaning i have or used to have a huge sex drive. My wife is not into sex as much as i am. This started to happen to her when we had a optopic pregnancy. This means when the egg has been fertilized while in the tubes and is stuck there. well, she had surgery due to the growing egg exploded the tube and needed emergency surgery from bleeding to death.
Well, the tube was unrepairable so the one side does not work for her only the other side. They said we would have more of a challenge or problem getting pregnant, boy were they wrong 6 months after the surgery she got pregnant. Well, ever since the surgery her sex drive was less then 50%. Now stress and me being a drunk may have also had played in this but now i stopped drinking and got help.
But while this was going on we hardly had sex, if we did it was just to shut me up, there was no passion or like she wanted it or she was turned on.
So of course i had to take care of buisness myself and i did that alot i mean anywhere from 2 to 8 times a day.... always had a full load too. Eventually, i got tired of the cleanup i started to hold it in more and more. Then eventually i would hold it in and once i had the good feeling i would just stop. it seems my body got used to this. Now i still get hard but it does not last long or is as hard to me as it used to be. Not to mention the load has changed as well. The load is not as big as it used to be matter of fact alot of times nothing comes out. Sometimes a little will come out.
I got scared and took a break for a bit like a week and noticed it seemed to help the load a bit. I did a google search and see some other people have the same problem. Most of the answers to there questions was to stop and it will come back.
But i feel i broke it, you know the saying "play with it and you will loose it" i feel i broke it. Has anyone experienced this? does anyone know if i just leave it alone for a while it may come back?
I also thought maybe i was lacking some sort of food or vitamin or chemical that produces the load.... that is why i thought maybe getting older was the problem.