I often feel like an outsider in this social section...like I am just looking in. But it's OK. I still enjoy the looking in.
I have always enjoyed sitting one on one with another or involved in small groups - a sharing & listening to their stories.... Whatever they may need to get out. I know in real life, some feel they can't go there, have been hurt too much in the past, for whatever reason...but yet... they need someone to talk too, an outlet .... so they find comfort in an anonymous forum...they learn they are not alone...& are in fact very relatable -just in things not spoken readily by those in their real lives. I enjoy this OPENNESS in others -in any subject really.
We had a Bonfire Party last night , up till 2 am , singing songs on our porch with my sons roommates ... some heavy conversations going on throughout the night.....but yet they were as light as air..... comforting infact.... no subject off topic, a place for all... .....We laughed, we related, we connected , we inspired each other......5 of us huddled in our kitchen....shooting the breeze about LIFE , our stories, our imperfections, our motivations, the importance of helping others....
No matter where we walk in life, even if it is on a keyboard at TAM...... I think this gives us the greatest heart Joy...at the end of the day.
Because of 2 very special people who came last night, I got to see a side to Christianity that I feel I could be a genuine part of -not being that someone on the outside looking in ....
Shy_guy ought to appreciate that -coming from me!
They laughed when I told them I've been thrown off of Christian forums, told me I would fit right in! The one lady listed the 4 things she hates in church, OMG did I ever agree! Their ministy is one of enthusiastic compassion...for those left on the outside....their aim....to reach the kids thrown out of the Youth groups because they weren't "good enough" ...they didn't fit the boxes Christians impose on everyone.
It was a night to remember, things spoken I will forever carry with me.
People will come & go in our lives...only there for a season...but if they inspired us ........ if we can leave something behind of some value to help others on their journey......this is what I want to DO....even if just through a keyboard.
Getting a pat on the pack, although it is very encouraging....I've felt my ego bursting a # of times here....some have been very kind to me.... it should never never be what it is about. I need to check myself from time to time.
I am a very social creature...but just a SAHM who doesn't get off the farm too much....I used to allow Soaps, kids, kept a spotless house, browsing Ebay through the day & listened to talk radio every am (that was my challenging of the mind when my husband was at work).... but I find forums much more FUN , even fullfilling somehow - for a little social interaction.
Even if just a fraction of my posts are of the inspiring kind, this would be worth it, I know I have a tendency to debate & speak too much about myself -that likely affects my message at times. This is something I need to work on. But I still so enjoy TAM, when I get it right.