~~~ SW ~~~
~ A woman was sipping on a glass of wine, while sitting on the patio with her husband. She says, "I love you so much, I don't know how I could ever live without you". Her husband asks, "Is that you or the wine talking?"...She replies, "It's me ... talking to the wine.
No, no mocking.... I love to be in the water.... I can spend hours- of course, here in the country, that's in a river, not a pool. I put on the mask, fins, and snorkel, and will spend hours overturning rocks looking at creatures.... at the coast, I love to do the same in tide pools.
But in the shower, my face gets wet, and a wave of anxiety washes through me, like I'm going to drown!
I used to kayak, I went azz over teakettle over a dam spillway one time. About a 10' drop. I thought I was done- and yet I remember stopping myself as I started to panic, and was literally like I was talking to myself in my own head, saying "this is ridiculous, if you dont calm down, and get out of this boat NOW, you are going to die- I was stuck upside down, in the pool below the spillway, and the water kept pulling me back under the flow over the dam. Only someone who has seen it happen, or experienced it probably knows what I'm talking about, but it was like being stuck in a full washing machine.... No idea which way is up, just as you think you are going to be able to escape, the current sweeps you back under, and you hear the thunder of the water, and feel the pressure of it grabbing you again.... And again...and again, while your body starts going into oxygen panic.
Yeah.... Need me a wash cloth in the shower now
As for chocolate..... Who the hell chews chocolate? I don't care if it's m&ms, or a $20 truffle, it's meant to MELT in your mouth, so I totally hear you!
Ok, that's a bunch of rambling, but this is the second night of 2 hours of sleep, after several of much less than normal sleep.... But I know several of you understand what insomnia is like, so I don't feel bad!
If there's rebar at the bottom of the spillway, it spares all the panic.
Location: On a clear day, I can see Mt. Rainier ... but you can't count on the days to be clear here ...
Re: Weird things you do aka worst thread ever
I write, then think I've been ambiguous, so I go back and add an example, then think I introduced another place where I was ambiguous, so I clarify, then think I added in something that needs to expounded upon, so I add a new paragraph to expound on that, then see another place where I think I've been ambiguous, so I go back and add an example to clarify, then I think I added in something that needs to be expounded upon, so I add a new paragraph ...
And of course, sometimes after doing all that, I realize I originally posted it in the wrong thread .