So, my wife and I have been married for almost 7 years. 2 kids, mortgage and a shedload of debt that comes with it all...
Past year has been pretty crappy, 2 pretty stupid arguements and a significant lack of sex. I genuinely don't remember when we last french kissed...
The physical side of our relationship has been shocking, I'm mad about my wife, I know she has some physical hangups about her body image but it absolutely doesn't bother me one bit.
Long story short, I found something in her handbag when popping a little love letter in which sparked some fears. I should have just come out with it but I went and did the stupid thing of looking through her cloud photos and found some pictures of her I was pretty shocked to see and quite hurt to think I have no place in her sex life if that's what she gets up to. We all get off on different things, just sucks that she has no interest in me.
I know I did the wrong thing snooping, I severely damaged trust and if our marriage makes it out alive I'll be beyond amazed. I don't want any sympathy, I messed up.
So if this goes belly up is it really that bad? I mean we sleep apart because our kids are awful sleepers and if they get in I sleep through it, my wife doesn't. I always do the washing, I hoover, the dishwasher gets done and the rabbit gets fed.
Now I'll be gutted because we were sweethearts from our teens but evidently something just isn't right. We don't have sex, we don't cuddle, we don't share the same bed.
Am I hanging on to something for the kids, the nostalgia? At the end of the day I just want to be loved and happy, and my wife deserves that too if she isn't.
Advice from anyone welcome, I just get the feeling I'm holding on for something that won't happen.
And I'll take the flak for snooping from the community, not my proudest moment. Won't be repeated.
Nothing wrong with getting to the bottom of this. That said, she on the edge. With the love letter and all other that's included. Question is are you going to play the pick me dance, or are you going to be the man with strength in your marriage?
i feel for you mate but imo ask your self what do you want and have you talked to each other about your feelings about if like if you both feel the same way and can separate on good terms your children will still get both the attention and love from both you and your partner even if you separated. hope that's helpfull
I for one am not going to admonish you for snooping. Sometimes it needs to be done. Your spouse should have nothing to hide. Did you find something that indicates she is cheating? Does she seem to have some kind of fetish that she hasnt been sharing with you? It sounds like she is quite checked out of the marriage. What have you been doing to try and work on things? Why are you the one doing everything around the house? If she isnt willing to work on things, tell her she can get out, you got it handled.
Things on the other side of divorce can be awesome, depends on your situation. I personally have never regretted my divorces. You cant fix your marriage by yourself.
So what did you find? I am confused, you put a letter in her purse and found something? Then you looked at the cloud and found pictures of.....her?....dudes?....what?
Your situation may very well be too far gone, but you need a bit of a wake-up call.
One of the most common things I hear from my readers is, "My wife hated her body. She only would get undressed in the dark. She wouldn't let me touch her. And then... I discovered (enter awful sexual secret here)." Your wife is a human being. Humans have sexual and intimacy needs. That energy needs to come out in some way. It sounds like you found out what her outlet is.
Married people should have no secrets, except when they go to the toilet. What were the pictures you found? Depending on what they are she could have low self esteem, poor boundaries, poor judgment, an affair, or all of the above.
You're being way too hard on yourself for snooping. Given the warning signs that you were getting (& maybe didn't realize it), you should have snooped earlier.
Pictures of her in bed with another guy warrants a different response than, say, pictures of bondage gear.
Some things are things you could maybe explore together and she’s just afraid to tell you, others are indications that your marriage ended a long time ago and she just didn’t actually tell you that.
I suppose my hang ups on privacy are driven by my wife's expectations, she's fuming with me.
I'd found a pregnancy test in her handbag, should've just asked as she said she got it for someone at work who was too embarrassed to do it.
The pictures were some crazy raunchy selfies, proper hot and wish I'd been sent them. Dress up, writing on herself, suggestively open onesies. Now she says they're for her in an attempt to feel sexy and try to get her sex drive back on track. She said she doesn't feel "connected", I just found them insane to be taking pictures like that of yourself for your own pleasure but I'm not judging I've got my own kinks and we all get horny!
I dunno whether it's all just a mess now and what is there to save?
the reason she is fuming with you is because you found them out.
dude: there are so many red flags here, i don't know where to start. your wife is up to nooooo good. Sorry friend and i know what is feels like, i've been there.
Depends on how you define "bad". Are you okay with being alone? That in and of itself shouldn't stop you from getting a divorce but it is a big negative for a lot of divorcees.
Do you think your wife is posting those pics on a forum or website? I know Reddit has lots of those types of sites.
Am I really the only one who takes selfies for myself?
Now I truly wonder.
It definitely warrants further investigation but it is possible she took them for herself. In my case it's to give me an objective look at everything from my hair to my clothing fit.
Geez. The pregnancy test was for her! The pictures were for her other man. I'm usually not one to cry - cheating!!- but this time I will. Seriously... she is having sex with someone else and thought she might be pregnant.
Honestly that's all that's gone through my head is that she's been engaging in unfaithful behaviour. The photos I saw are literally etched in my mind to the point I just cannot explain it any other way.
After a (crappy) night's sleep I don't really feel that remorseful about snooping and been thinking about the what if divorce situation. Not being funny what am I going to miss? So long as my kids are ok that's the main thing as they're only young.
and chances are, if you make thoughtful decisions, don't rush into anything and learn how to avoid problematic relationships before you go dating again, you will
have a better life. maybe much better. and if you decide to stay single forever, you may be very happy too.
I suggest you go into stealth mode as exposing her has just resulted in some very lame explanations ... and DARVO and gaslighting making you out to be the one at fault ... so you'll get nothing more from discussing it. Go dark, keep things civil, dig for more ... you are entitled to some truth.
Can you check email, her phone, messaging apps, recover deleted messages, etc. The phone records is just the start ...
You need peace of mind. Absolutely nothing wrong with your investigation.
It's FABULOUS on the other side. I looooooooooved living on my own (with my son).
I had the best time of my LIFE after I left my ex. Should have done it years before.
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