I think he's gone
So, my beau came over tonight, and we were going to do dinner and hang out. We ended up doing just dinner.
Before we left for dinner, I asked him some questions that have been plaguing me for about a week: are you seeing anyone else other than me? His answer was a resounding no, and that he's closed down both his online dating profiles shortly after meeting me. I went on to say that it would explain some things: that he no longer uses his pet names for me, he doesn't take my hand in public anymore, and he recently locked his phone. His explanation was that he's really busy with work, kids and is pretty stressed out. He thought he was being upfront in the past when he said that before. I guess I misread or didn't understand completely. I had also said that if he wanted this to be a more casual thing, then that was okay with me, but that we needed to be upfront with one another about possibly dating others.
At any rate, we went for dinner, and were having a decent time when I asked him what he wanted to do for the rest of the evening: go out somewhere or kick back and relax. He said that he would be going home after dinner. That pretty much killed my appetite. He had kept a DVD set at my place, and on the looong drive home (10 mins felt like 40), I asked him if he would like to take those home with him. He said that he would. So, now he's gone with his DVDs (except one I found in the blueray player), along with the goodies he had baked me that he brought tonight.
God, I feel like such a douche. I don't know if I'll ever see him again, and I think I may have destroyed something potentially real and good. Was I stupid for voicing my concerns? Should I have done it differently? I feel awful for him and for myself, and kind of wish I'd have kept my mouth shut.